I'm letting go

Looking back

sweet memories

of you and I together.

You were my hero

and I was

your sweetest heart

I loved you

with all my being

I thought you felt the same way too

but no,

I was wrong.

Your touch

your kiss

the way you made me feel

Oh baby,it is all

coming back to me

my nights are cold

my days are lonely

cos' there is no longer

you in my life

I toss

I turn

I scream

cos' the pain is so intense

Fighting the urge

to pick up my phone

and call you

just to tell you

that I am

still in love with you

everytime you come around

the tension is so thick

I could cut it with a knife

but baby

the bitter truth is

I GOT TO LET YOU GO.

I Love you, you just do not know it...

Days are lonely, nights are cold,

night after night

I wish I were lying in your arms

When the nights get stormy,

and the raindrops pelt on my window

I wet my pillow with my tears

wishing we could be together,

cos' you are not here with me

loved you right from time

but you just do not know

so many things I need to say to you

but I'm scared of rejection

nobody loves being rejected;

by the one they love, especially.

Sometimes, I wonder

do you ever think of me?

So many questions,

so many things that may be left unsaid

You are all I have ever dreamed for

and more...

Like they say

time will tell...

but for now...

Memories...

Finally got round to doing this. Laziness is a sin,I swear!!!

You know, it is advisable to always at one point in life take stock of our lives. It makes us to know where we have gone wrong and what areas in our lives need amendment.

There is no telling the power of pictures of the past. If you looked more carefully,you would know exactly at what point you started going haywire!
Last night, I was going through my old pictures,old diaries,write-ups,little notes and love letters. I discovered that I could draw the line between when I was reeking of innocence and now that I do not even understand my life anymore!

Not that it is a mess now, but hey! sometimes I just feel like throwing caution to the winds,forget my "reputation"(one I have worked hard to build), drop all the formings and go back to the sweet, innocent girl I used to be. Old stuff like that have a way of evoking strong emotions within you. As I looked at some of the pictures, I laughed and also, some of them made me break down in tears.

There are times I wish I were an innocent 5 year old again,oblivious of the harsh realities of life.At times like that,I just crawl into a corner and weep.
All hope is not lost,though. I know that somewhere, within this tough, sophisticated exterior,there still exists that sweet, innocent girl full of sunny smiles!